Wildness
by Rachel Creager Ireland
What if it were a dream, what would it mean,
if a cat killed a bird barely ready to fly?
You wanted to protect the birds,
but you couldn’t. The cats’ wild nature,
what you admired about them,
drove them to hunt. When you took them in,
you thought you could balance their needs
with the needs of the local environment,
aliens though they were. You thought
you were more powerful than they.
At this point, in the dream, the cats
would have grown much larger than you’d expected.
They’d be like tigers, paws as big as your face,
claws that could take you down in one playful swat.
You’d be fearful for the safety of the children,
who, because it’s a dream, would be very small,
infants, even, not the actual gangly teens
you know today, who look down to meet your eyes.
You would hope that evolution
might have given the birds something.
They are wild, too. You might try
communication, learning their various
calls, watching and learning their habits.
Don’t build your nest in that tree, there are cats,
I can’t protect you, because cats. Cats.
And miraculously they understand, and
move the nest closer to the house.
What does it mean, when every day
you struggle to keep the wildness in, but it escapes,
and every day another dead bird by the door,
with the mottled feathers of one big enough
to fly, but not yet very good at it,
not having grown into their distinction,
the patterns and colors that show who they are?
Nice, Rachel. It touched my heart.
Thanks, Janet.
Are cats ever ex-feral? Or only occasionally ex-feral?
What do they see that we cannot see?
Hi Tom! She was feral as a small kitten, but socialized well. We think that the feral genes contribute to her hunting ability, as she was too small when we got her to have learned it from her mother. She’s also smarter than the other cats we’ve had. But, no, she’ll probably always be wild.
As for what they are that we don’t, maybe you have some thought you’d like to share?
Hi Rachel! I think humans are often more feral than they would admit, even to themselves. I don’t know what cats see, but they often seem to be fascinated watching something invisible to me. Friendly ETs would be cool.
If it’s not too much trouble, I’d like to get your advice on a health issue. I’m not sure what email address you’re using these days, but I’m still at teslocombe@gmail.com. I’d keep it brief. No pressure, but if you have a moment, maybe you could send me an email message so I have the right address for you. Thanks!
BTW, I’m reading your novel and enjoying it.
Thank you! Sending an email.
Awwwww thanks for this post. Much better to start the day on this. 🙂
Thanks, glad you enjoyed it. ☺
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