Black Tangle
by Rachel Creager Ireland
It could take a year to get this place in order,
but I have to sell quickly. And I have to give
it over to the next owner with my whole heart,
with love and joy. So today I’ll plant this stone
flower box, with mums, because it’s late
in the summer, past the season for annuals.
The box is overgrown with perennials that
no longer flower, and volunteer white heath
that flowers too late. Oddly for August,
there’s new green growth under the black tangle
of last year’s moldy stems. I grab handfuls
of dead stuff, roly-polies scatter. Oh roly-polies,
cute dry-land crustaceans, I remember now
why I hate you. How many times have I
planted mums here, how many times
did you kill them? How many gallons
of water did I carry and pour out
for that which was doomed? I remember now
the full heart I put into this place, the
hope I held. How bitterly I gave up. How
intimate I’ve become with the word failure.
Why am I doing this? Love and whole heart,
oh yes. These blooms will be bright and pretty,
if only for a short while: that’s all I need.
Give me a week to show the place, then
let it be someone else’s job. I leave
a chunk of gangly mystery flower, move
the native late-bloomer a few inches
to make space for today’s fresh batch.
No normal person would find beauty
in these weeds, but I am a master of rescuing
the unwanted, of seeing beauty where others
see trash. The beer-can pinwheel isn’t a loss,
yet. I turn it to the slight breeze, watch it jiggle.
Every time I think it’s slowing to stillness,
another whisper wakes it. It never quite dies,
never really spins.
Even in no movement there is Life!! Have you in the Beacon, all is in Divine Order. Much live, already missing you!
Picturing colorful, persistent later-season blossoming in all areas of your life!
Beautiful perspective. Master of rescuing the unwanted. Of seeing beauty where others see trash. My soul loves your poem. All of it.
But now that I think about it, I’m not sure master is the right word. I don’t know that I’m any better at it than anyone else. It might be more like a compulsion or a destiny. Or fate, like Cassandra. Okay Hazel, don’t be offended if I change that. 🙂
How would you feel about this?
“No normal person would find beauty
in these weeds, but it is my curse
to rescue the unwanted, to be called
by the beauty and utility in what others
call trash. . . .”
I am blessed with wonderful friends.